[Veteran Vanilla]

I joined back when RP 1st launched. It was great. We had some of the best staff of all time on PH RP and they were: Killgore, BannedHammer, Velocity, Nathanimal, Peanut Butter and many more. Those listed were just a handful of the individuals who made RP a place to remember and thus a place to return. I quit for roughly a year in the game of CSGO. I came back for a bit and found RP was still alright. I couldn't find any of my old pals and mentors but I met some good people such as Peppermint_Bark, Flopdup, Kazum, Kaz, Isabella, Jonas, jose, ryewolf, Polar and tons more. I remember getting into conflicts and having great memories. Unfortunately these people have either quit, faded away or just inactive. They have been replaced by the new generation of PH RP.

The New Generation as I call it are: Strict, Can't take a joke, easy to anger and for the most part, immature. They are people who deem themselves higher then the average RP'er. These people range from some of the trial-mods to just some randoms who think they are super cool. I'm sad to have to walk around the RP servers searching very hard for people who are like the Old players. Flopdup is still here and he is annoying at times but for the most part he is one of my closest friends on RP. Some others such as Mr.Anderson, AuzzyKid and PAPA SMURF aren't what I had in mind when I came back all that time ago. They are toxic, annoying, immature and immature.

This may all sound like I'm trying to have a go at everyone and be a douche but the thing is. I miss all the old RP'ers. I mean I met one of my longest standing friends from RP called "Mr Lost Sympathy" he was only back for around 2 days before saying to me "I'm quitting this RP server again." I asked him why he said "This isn't fun anymore, they just aren't fun" I asked him what he meant by this he said "They can't take a joke, use common sense or be fair." I said "Yea, I know mate, shame to see you go again."

I'm sad to see what a sad and sorrow state RP is now at. I still find enjoyment with those who can loosen up and take a joke and have a little fun. I mean 5 staff online. None in a modsit. None help. Back in the day I ask for staff help every available Staff drops what ever they were doing and TP's over. I was very heartwarming and a good show of respect. Back then the community respected the staff, in return the staff showed the same respect back. Now... Not many respect the staff too much and the staff definitely don't respect or give a flying fuck about the community. As good old Velocity told me : "We staff MUST respect the community, for without them, there is no us." or as another staff member told me: "If staff cannot respect others, how do they respect themselves?"

This is a long post however I just want to try remind everyone what RP was meant to be like. What it is now isn't what the old staff wanted. I bet most the old staff will be deeply saddened looking at what their dreams, inspirations, motivations and influence has come to. This isn't RP. This is nothing...

People on RP joke about: suicide, murder, races & religions, pedophilia, rape, terrorism and many other things which are not funny. These are serious issues what may effect millions around the globe. Most are younger people who don't realise how fortunate they are until they lose the things they love the most in their lives.

I've lost both my parents and my best friend. No, don't pity me for even though these were the most heartbreaking times in my life but they have opened me up to new opportunities and helped me expand my views on the world. They died loving me and I hope they died knowing I loved them, I've now got 2 new parents who are so kind to me, given me a second chance at life and helped me in every way possible.

I hate people who see me standing up and against certain things on RP calling me "over sensitive and saying shit like I understand, I was like you when I was younger." For they obviously don't understand what it's like losing both their parents and their best friend, they don't understand why I do some of the things I do. Nor were they like me when they were younger.

On RP I bring up concepts such as Trust, Loyalty and forgiveness. I don't trust easily and when I do, most the time I don't regret it. I do occasionally give it to the wrong sorts and take it back quickly. Once trust is lost. It's extremely hard to gain back. Loyalty, I'm loyal to those who are loyal to me. People who no matter what I've done will still be beside me and there for me. People who have gained my absolute trust and loyalty are: Flopdup, i4sheep, Instagaming and AsheAlymer. They have been there for me for a long time and I really do miss Instagaming (PS: Plz come back! ). Forgiveness, I don't see this often, once someone betrays you or hurts you in anyway it's very hard to forgive them. It took me a while to forgive myself for my bestfriends death. We were meant to go together. I dropped out and let him down. Forgiving isn't the hard part of this however, forgiveness links in with trust and loyalty. Not many realise this but they forgive easily but don't trust easily. People who do end up trusting someone again tend to gain that persons Loyalty for it shows they are mature enough to get over it and move on.

The key components of being what I deem as mature are: Respectable, trustworthy, reliable, friendly, understanding, fair, caring and forgiving. You can't move on in life if you are holding on to the past chapters of life. I've come to accept that the staff aren't as fun as they use to be, come to find they are not as swift and reliable as they use to be. I've come to accept that people will either like you or hate you. I find those who do like me for whom I am and surround myself with them and I repel and shield myself from those who don't. There are many people who waste their time trying to insult me, make me feel down or try to make me change who I am. I still stick with my ethics and morals. Stick with who you are, don't change for anyone, no matter the rewards. You change who you are for a reward? You do feel enjoyment but you have cheated yourself. You didn't get the reward. A fake of you did.

This is a long as fuck post and I know that. This is just my thoughts on things and random other things. I haven't proof read this or made an outline so please don't reply about any grammar, punctuation or spelling mistakes you may find.

Thanks for reading!
-Flopdup Jr.

[FabAlien]

I agree to most of your points, and its sad to see RP in the state that it is now with toxic mods who cant take a joke, and i also miss some of the other old timers on pandahut. That being said there are of course those that stay and still make rp fun.
I might not be a very known player, but i will allways hope for pandahut to "be made great again"

[Helena]

hate people who see me standing up and against certain things on RP calling me "over sensitive and saying shit like I understand, I was like you when I was younger." For they obviously don't understand what it's like losing both their parents and their best friend, they don't understand why I do some of the things I do. Nor were they like me when they were younger

Not to be offensive or anything but tbh what they say is more of an acomplishment. Plus they don't mean that they also had no parents they just mean in the way how u act at a certain moment.
Also i do agree with you in most of your text

but I met some good people such as Peppermint_Bark, Flopdup, Kazum, Kaz, Isabella, Jonas, jose, ryewolf, Polar

Lmao

[tMoist]

Unmistakingly true. I have heard many players talk about the "good old days of pandahut," but since I most likely didn't even have steam back in the "good old days", I really have no comparison of the pandahut then and the pandahut now. But I know enough that what you said about current staff members is true. No matter what new fancy events and plug-ins are introduced, the most important changes are the ones that happen to the people. I'm not talking the big-shot super mods, I'm talking about the changes that happen to the unknowns out there. They might find a great new friend, they might love the server so much they buy MVP+, they might love the community so much they apply for mod. So many little things, but they all become one huge thing in the end. The community. And that what's fuelled my love for pandahut. Community. Sure, a lot of you will argue it's not "as good as it used to", but saying that won't achieve anything. We have to accept old pandahut is gone, and accept the new one. And the only way we can do that? Change. The same way pandahut changed from new to old. Surely we can still change it back? Or maybe we don't need to.

~T-Moist